Separated at Birth
I was just actually surfing the net to learn how to write like an architect - because my father told me to make myself comfortable with it as soon as possible - and I found this website. It's cool actually; I'm enjoying every bit of content in this website, not only this. ^_^
Thursday, June 30, 2011
Tuesday, June 28, 2011
Caught in the Middle
Honestly, I am thinking twice whether I am going to write a post or not in my blog. I am kinda' caught in a the middle of Scylla and Charybdis - in my situation, they're not actually evils. I am like in the middle of a tug-of-war game and both sides are pulling my left and my right arm. It seems as if I have always lived this way.
When I was a child, my mother and I started to take Bible lessons from Jehovah's Witnesses. If am not mistaken, I was in my 4th grade in Elementary, so I was ten years old at that time. It went on and on and on, until it stopped but I never got the privilege to be baptized as one of their official member. I admit that their teachings have brought so many good things to me. I was not a usual teenager when compared to my batch mates in high school. If many of my batch mates back then would burn the midnight oil for text mates, web browsing and networking, online computer games, and electronics, I would be up til dawn finishing every bit of home works, activities, and extra-curricular stuffs. I was so dedicated to my studies because of the teachings of the Jehovah's Witnesses, because I have developed love and devotion towards Him.
My Bible studying was not continuous, why? It was because I passed on to different members and I guess, I also lost interest in it. But I never stopped praying day and night and reading the Bible everyday. I kept in touch with Him but not with them. I continued my life and didn't care about those doctrines they taught.
The time came when I fell in love. He is a Born-Again Christian and if you would ask me how I feel about him, I'd say I love him so much. He was the one who made me realize a lot of things, the only person who made me think so much. Despite the difference between our religious beliefs, we fell in love. The time came when I want him to see the religion unbiasedly. I thought that if we have the same belief, it would have been better. But he let me see another side of the religion. He showed a website showing the different discrepancy of the religion that I have never known before. I never thought of it before. After I read several articles, I was so shocked at those revelation...
I didn't know what to feel. So, I shut myself from any religious organization. I didn't want any of them and still I believed in God. Without their affiliation, I lived. And I had more time for myself since I have already graduated in high school. And what is my purpose for writing all of these? I don't know...maybe I'm just seeking for the truth, for what is real. I prayed to God to show me what is the truth, but He never showed me. What am I to believe in? Until now, I still don't know...
When I was a child, my mother and I started to take Bible lessons from Jehovah's Witnesses. If am not mistaken, I was in my 4th grade in Elementary, so I was ten years old at that time. It went on and on and on, until it stopped but I never got the privilege to be baptized as one of their official member. I admit that their teachings have brought so many good things to me. I was not a usual teenager when compared to my batch mates in high school. If many of my batch mates back then would burn the midnight oil for text mates, web browsing and networking, online computer games, and electronics, I would be up til dawn finishing every bit of home works, activities, and extra-curricular stuffs. I was so dedicated to my studies because of the teachings of the Jehovah's Witnesses, because I have developed love and devotion towards Him.
My Bible studying was not continuous, why? It was because I passed on to different members and I guess, I also lost interest in it. But I never stopped praying day and night and reading the Bible everyday. I kept in touch with Him but not with them. I continued my life and didn't care about those doctrines they taught.
The time came when I fell in love. He is a Born-Again Christian and if you would ask me how I feel about him, I'd say I love him so much. He was the one who made me realize a lot of things, the only person who made me think so much. Despite the difference between our religious beliefs, we fell in love. The time came when I want him to see the religion unbiasedly. I thought that if we have the same belief, it would have been better. But he let me see another side of the religion. He showed a website showing the different discrepancy of the religion that I have never known before. I never thought of it before. After I read several articles, I was so shocked at those revelation...
I didn't know what to feel. So, I shut myself from any religious organization. I didn't want any of them and still I believed in God. Without their affiliation, I lived. And I had more time for myself since I have already graduated in high school. And what is my purpose for writing all of these? I don't know...maybe I'm just seeking for the truth, for what is real. I prayed to God to show me what is the truth, but He never showed me. What am I to believe in? Until now, I still don't know...
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